you know... sometimes i regret that i tried for section leader... i didnt know that i would cause so much trouble...and i didnt know that i would lose so many friends over it...as ive just lost another..but i feel like it wasnt my doing, and that my best friend is not even acting like a best friend right now, as she talks so much crap behind my back and that i hear it from other leaders..it really makes me mad...

and it is for that reason, jacob no longer speaks to melissa, as he disapproves of her now, which is not my fault, it is hers. and no matter how many times i try to talk to her, or pour my heart and cry, she doesnt listen, and nothing changes.

but i am happy because tomorrow is my best guy friends/ex boyfriend/my forever love ryan morenos birthday. hes turning 15. so i am going to make him a cake and i ot him a zepplin shirt.mmhmm.